Mommy fears...

So lately I have been beyond stressed trying to figure things out for myself, Tristan, and baby #2 (Still no name chosen yet). We live with a friend right now because I have no job or income (we have state assistance for food and medical) to get my own place. I wanted to try and get a job but with Arthritis, black outs, and headaches that occur about 90% of the day... it's very difficult and I know that they would end up firing me. I'm considering applying for disability for my arthritis but I feel so unsure about it. I want to have a place before this baby comes because we can't stay here after the baby comes and it is too stressful living here. Chris barely helps except with diapers and wipes twice a month and barely sees Tristan. I am working on filing for child support as well. 


I'm just not sure what to do anymore and I'm worried. I have almost no friends nearby except the one I live with and we both make each other irritated and upset a lot and I never can get away. Sorry about the rambling, this is honestly the only place where I can pour everything out. 


On a happy note, look at this cutie: